actually having a real, meaningful conversation with my ex-girlfriend is nice.  I'll admit, ive been feeling pretty lonely lately, and realizing that I cant really accomplish all my goals or a possible relocation on my own...or at least I could, but it wouldnt be as fun as sharing them or success with a best friend, with someone closer than anyone else, and im actually really scared to start something new with anybody else.. just the whole afraid to eat in front of them process... I would just rather do this with someone that ive already known before, because yes, yes I do.. I have trust issues.. there.

    It's on blogspot now, for everyone to see.

more tellings of issues and blunders to come